"TAP"

Lately I can turn the tears on and off like a tap.
I hate it! It's not me!! I've never been a sook and I have always hated losing control!
(That's the Primary school teacher coming out in me...we are all a little bit controlling!)
Some days the tap seems to drip. It's hard to turn off and it doesn't take much to pour uncontrollably.
But, there are a lot of days when the tap doesn't drip, it doesn't even turn on. The tap runs dry!
Those are the days when we all cope better.
One dripping tap in this household seems to let loose a barrage of dripping taps. It's not pleasant and we sometimes seem to be tiptoeing around each others' emotions.
I wish it wasn't that way but I can understand why it is! I sometimes think it would be just easier to let the emotions pour out and we would all learn to deal with it!! But, it's not that easy! No-one likes to see those we love hurting so its natural to try to appease the pain of those close to us!
We are doing well most days and all of us have become sponges ready to soak up the mess after the tap drips yet again!