Like any parent, I have dreams for my children and their future.
I dream that their world will be happy and safe and healthy.
I dream that they will find true love and contentment with a partner who treats them well, communicates easily and loves them unconditionally.
I dream that they will realise that the world owes them nothing but that they have to work for the things that they desire and that not all their wants will come easily or even eventuate at all.
I dream that they will be able to weather the storms of life as not everything in life is pleasant.
I dream that these storms will not be catastrophic for them!
I dream that they will become parents themselves and know the intensity of love that comes with having your own child.
I dream the best that life can give!!
I have all these dreams and more for my wonderful 'little' girl! I think some of them have or are starting to eventuate. But I know that there is a long road ahead for her. At the moment, her road looks relatively smooth and I can only hope that this is her main highway to Life! She deserves it!!
I had the same dreams for my boys too! Those dreams were cut way too short for Toby and Nicholas...although their little lives were probably happy and safe for the most part.
I had the same dreams for you too, Jake!
Your future looked bright and full of promise. It already held love and fun. It held laughter and friendship and a promising career.
But, we won't get to watch you bringing up your own children. We won't get to hold them and share your joy in their milestones. Sian won't get to be an aunty for any of her sibling's children.
Three years ago you spoke of your future dreams...yes, you had them too!
This was to be your year of travel! You had Europe in your sights and were determined to include Belgium in your itinerary and find the Chateau de Berloz from whence your ancestors originated. I wish that dream could have come true for you!
Tomorrow is Mothers Day! But it also marks three years since you left our world so I celebrated being a Mum last weekend ... it's just way too hard to try celebrating being a Mum when it also marks a remembrance of the worst day of my life!
I know in my heart that some of my dreams for you have come true! You are now safe and happy and healthy! You knew love and you held a promising career!
Perhaps, for you, it was enough!!
I love you Jake and always will! Be happy! xxx
